Baker and I have been talking a lot about me moving back to PA in August for school. Originally, I wanted him to come with me (I still do) but I emailed my mom to talk to her about it and she doesn’t think it’d be a good idea. At first, I couldn’t stop crying and every time I thought about it, I’d cry more. But, I don’t think it’ll be such a bad idea after all. I definatley don’t want it, but I know I need to go back to school and I think time apart will in some way, eventually strengthen our relationship. Plus, it’s not like we haven’t done long distance before, that is how we started off. We also talked about him spending Christmas with me and he said he’s okay with that so I’m happppay.

In other news, I’m catsitting/chillllin’ in my friend Mia’s apartment while she’s in Canada so I can feed her kitty’s and use her wifi/netflix. :3 I think the people in the apartment upstairs are having sex.

In other OTHER news, I have a job interview at Giant Eagle tomorrow and when I told my mom, her response was “What’s Giant Eagle?” haaaaaaaaaaaha.

Sadie is touching my boob. and we’re watching Rugrats.

I’m done. I hate my all over the place type posts. Which is most of them..

My mom just bought a big ass beautiful house in Media because I guess she has a lot of money and doesn’t know what else to do with it. It has a back deck the size of half the house and one of those middle islands in the kitchen with a stove on it and a bar counter in one of the living room areas. I’m excited. I’m gonna go back to PA when she moves in to help decorate and I’m gonna paint my new room neon yellow. I just hope that Baker will be able to come with me in the end cause as of now it’s not looking too good. :( I couldn’t stand living in different states again and going back to school is gonna be even more of a bitch now.

But anyway, heres a random inside shot of the new house:

See the bar back there?! YAY. Bartender Harley in the houuuUUuUUuUse.

I brought up the idea of moving to Ohio to my mom today while she, my sister and I were out to dinner.

We were having a conversation about it and for some reason, my sister felt the need to say that she thought it was a stupid idea and I should think. All I do is think. I have nothing else to do. I don’t work. I don’t go to school. I wanna be happy. I’m not happy here. Maybe I won’t be happy there either (doubtful) but I won’t know if I don’t try. I’m tired of sitting around. I’m tired at living at my Mom’s house (nothing personal Mom, I love you!) but I’m sick of everyone arguing. And obviously, I wanna be with my boy. I don’t wanna be surrounded by this forever. I don’t wanna live in Ohio forever either but it’s what I want right now. I wish people understood. Actually, I don’t care if people understand but I wish my mom understood at least. Regardless, she isn’t going to stop me if I do decide to go because she’s not that kind of person. I like that about her, not so I can get away with shit. But it shows she trusts me. She knows she raised me well and I think she’s okay with sitting back and seeing what I’ll do with my life.

Anyway, My sister saying it was a stupid idea makes me want to go even more, even sooner..